any advice on what i should do? Dec 17, 2017 12:42:55 GMT -8
Post by Lauren on Dec 17, 2017 12:42:55 GMT -8
I'm only 14 but i have struggled with eating disorders, self harm, depression, and other mental disorders. before i started watching onisions videos, i was too insecure to even walk out of the house because i was afraid of people judging me. my friends, parents, brother, and just other random people have told me that i need to lose weight and that i am fat. But onisions opinions have showed me that i am not as fat as i think i am and as long as i am healthy then everything is fine. i am currently 5'4 and 126 lbs. i am still very insecure and recovering but it has gotten better. another thing is that my parents dont know about anything that is going on in my life. they dont know about my depression or mental illnesses or that i am suicidal (but my friend who is 19 has taken me to a psychiatrist without my parents knowing and i was diagnosed with these things) and im worried to tell them the truth because they will not understand and will just send me away. i am also scared to come out to them about me being pans**ual (love all genders such as male, female, trans, non binary, gender fluid) because they will disown me and kick me out of the house. i have a girlfriend and we are so happy together and love her so much but i feel like a disappointment to my family. last year, my cousin came out as gay and i love him so much but my family always talks crap on him and i know if i come out they will hate me. and there is just so much going on im my life and this isnt even all of it. i just dont know what to do anymore because my depression ans anxiety are eating me alive and it hurts so much and ive almost committed suicide but my girlfriend stopped me. i just had to get all this off my chest. and i am not trying to get pity i just needed to get that out. any advice on what i should do?