I want to drop dead (VENT) May 15, 2017 12:36:21 GMT -8 via mobile
Post by papavanilla on May 15, 2017 12:36:21 GMT -8
Hi, so I basically want to drop dead as of now. I have so much to stress about and I just can't take it anymore. It's the last week of my junior year, and I'm trying to wrap up all my work this week but its SO MUCH. And if I dont get it all done I'll fail 2 classes. I failed two classes last semester as well, and I never had before but I went into a delressive state and failed English and Math. I'm about to fail English and Geology, and I don't even understand Geology. It makes no f***ING SENSE. On top of that, I'm doing 3 job interviews this week because I have to quit my current one because it's too far and I have to focus on getting another job. I don't have any money really for college, I have money from my job but it isn't enough. I have to use it for a car anyway so I can get to college. I have no family, my dad has always been out of the picture and my mom isnt emotionally available and is kicking me out the moment I turn 18 (less than a year from now.) I don't know what to do. I don't have anyone to help me, I don't have friends, all I really have is my boyfriend but he's emotionally abusive and just pushes me away and I only stay around him because I'm scared of being lonely. I have no family, no friends, no one. I'm barely pushing through my last semester of my junior year, my senior year will be ass and basically just be re doing my junior year. (Lol I'll probably get into NO colleges because of my failure in junior year.) I'm failing at life, and I have no one to help me. Don't tell me to talk to a trusted adult or school coulselor, I don't have a trusted adult and the school counselors don't do s***. I try to do my schoolwork but my mom gets in my way or somethig always seems to. On top of that, my hair is too long and it hurts my neck and I have constant migranes from its weight. My mom wont let me cut it myself and I've been begging to have her take me to get it cut from the pain but she wont help me! Its not a priority to her. I'm just an object to my mom, and nothing about me is serious. Its all funny to her and means nothing. DONT TELL ME TO CALL CHILD SERVICES. THERE IS NOTHING THEY CAN DO. I AM 17 YEARS OLD AND TAKEN AS AN ADULT WITH THE LAW IN MY STATE. Thank you. So, when I turn 18 I no only have to worry about survival - but getting through college too. I don't know if I even can. I don't know what to do. I just want to die.