Post by PaigeinMourning on May 15, 2017 14:33:18 GMT -8
@skylabrynth (it wouldn't let me quote you :(.) It does, I lay awake thinking about what I could've done. She called me the night before, but my phone was off. I was out of town, and wasn't scheduled to come back until the 10th. There are so many ways I could've just been there for her, and I wasn't. I really feel like a s***ty friend. I know I really shouldn't, but I can't help it. I look at pictures of her and I imagine her doing the things she loved like doing her makeup or playing music. She won't ever get to do those things again, and that's the choice she made, but I can't help but feel like I could've told her that she didn't need to. She can't ever progress and grow up. She'll never get to breathe and smile, but at least she'll never have to starve, or cry, or get beaten. She was only 15, and yet she had been through so much. I wish she could've told me more, because I can relate. Anyways, thank you. And I hope you have a nice day as well.
Post by PaigeinMourning on May 15, 2017 14:43:51 GMT -8
And @xbabaygirlx, I'm sorry for whatever you are going through as well. It really sucks having all this stuff happen in my life, but I get comfort in knowing I'm not alone. It's gonna be a while before I can breathe without my lungs feeling heavy, or my sleep without my dreams interspersed with memories of our time together. I know this from previous trauma, but like you said, it gets easier, but it will hurt. I feel alone a lot, and even more so now that she is gone, but I know that my feelings of aloneness are shared by many people. Thank you, and everyone who commented for your kind words. I just realised the forums changed, so I didn't see these right away, I hope everyone is having a nice day and whatnot, I've got to go for now, but I will be back on later.
Post by PaigeinMourning on May 17, 2017 14:55:46 GMT -8
I have another update, but first, because my E-mail isn't working: Marcinette, since I know you stalk this thread :P, I got your E-mail, thank you :). I am free this Friday, and Jazz won't mind driving with me. Please E-mail me your phone number so I can elaborate.
UPDATE: My Girlfriend has revealed to me that at a public library near our town you can pay about $50 dollars for a "mini memorial". You get to put up a picture of the person, some flowers, any ashes (I got to keep her urn) and a space of the wall where people who knew the deceased can put up quotes or memories they had with them.
I am going to do this, and I will need your help!
Since Alison had a small social life, she was active on many online sites, all with the same username. (4SplitLemons or 4SplitLemons77)
If you have done ANY of the following, please pm this account here @ the Onision forums. (PaigeInMourning)
1. Talked to Alison IRL (I am not going to reveal her last name or state, but you would know, because of the paper or local news.)
2. Messaged her or made ANY notable interaction with her on ANY site (most likely the forums) please let me know! Screenshots or any form of proof would be much appreciated!
3. Have any general kind words that you would like to have put on there. I am trying to think of what to put on the "headstone" (similar to one, but carved into wood). Any sort of anything would be appreciated.
There is a deadline, May 24th 2017.
If you have ANY questions, feel free to ask!
Thank you to those who have chosen to help/plan on it!!
Post by PaigeinMourning on May 17, 2017 17:43:17 GMT -8
Also, @marcinette, it won't let me reply to your Emails. If you could find another way to chat with me, that'd be nice. I'm sorry you can't get an account :(. I think I may take your suggestion about trying to move this or share it somewhere else. :). I hope all is well with you and your aunt:)